Unseasonably warm weather motivated me to visit the wetlands
by my house today. I made a few “lines” and shot some video. The leaves have fallen, so it was nice to see the area opened up. New
items caught my eye, specifically bright orange berries amongst the otherwise
monochromatic colors. I actually look forward to the snow (if
we get much) in the upcoming months to see how the change of the seasons
affects the filming.
Sunday, November 30, 2014
Another wetlands visit and news
Tuesday, November 11, 2014
Distractions
I’m back in the studio working: twice this week. Woo hoo.
Today, I heard a crash. While drawing, my cat knocked over
my tripod. The legs of the tripod are taped in a precise location for my stop
motion work. It is important that the camera and the lights stay in the same
place every shot for consistency. But not today. This is the same cat who wants
in the room and then, once inside, he immediately wants to be let out. If I
shut the door he cries and paws at the door. According to one veterinarian this cat is “the
loudest cat I’ve ever heard.” This veterinarian was in his 60s, at least.
As soon as I opened the door to the studio, the other cat jumped up onto the table and looked at me. She decided to lie on all of my papers in
the middle of the table-the table where I often have print outs and books I’m
working on. It’s like I need to clear a place for her as well. And she’s
stocky, not fat, but stocky. This particular cat is also a chewer and I have
watched her chew off a corner of a print so really nothing of any value can be
left out. I’ve found cords chewed in half as well as folders and books with chewed off corners so I’m
always vigilant with this one.
The other day one of them, I’m pretty sure the loud one,
killed a mouse and left it right where I plug in my computer in the studio. It wasn’t so much
the sight of the mouse but the surprise of it all. Why did he have to leave it
there right where I would get up close and personal with the poor, dead thing?
"The light is perfect, just stay there. Dammit!"
In
Out, but considering going in
Chewer
Sunday, November 2, 2014
The News
I have been in a whirlwind the last three weeks. The new news is
that I got a job as the curator of exhibits at the SIUC museum. With my start
date around the corner, I planned to use my final week as a full time artist to
think about and plan my transition back into full time work while continuing my
artmaking practice. Instead, I used my last week as a full time artist to mourn the loss of my beautiful grandmother.
Since starting the job, things have moved at a much faster pace
and I have had little time to sit and reflect about the last month. As far as
this blog, I plan to post once a week about my artmaking travails. That is the
best I can aim for.
For now, I reflect on choosing to be unemployed (in one sense)
so that I could come back to my home state and practice my art in earnest. When
people ask if I regret this choice, I give a definitive "no." My
choice took time, lots of discussions, and a little bit of mental preparation.
There were times when I felt stupid because no matter how much I planned; I
still took a leap of faith in myself. I left a job without knowing what would
happen and how, if ever, my career would pick back up again, or even if I would
want to resume a career at a university. My partner, close friends, and family took this leap with me and I don't think I can thank them enough for their support when my decisions defied common sense. I can say with certainty: the people
in your day-to-day life can make a world of difference in your personal happiness.
I have a new appreciation for how we define ourselves. In the
last four months, I felt awkward not having a job title to give when I met
people for the first time. Before I became a full time artist, I believed in
the business logic of climbing up my own career ladder. Job titles defined my
ambition, the person I am. Without a title, it was difficult for me to explain
why I was at various art events or how I knew certain people. The
previous job title was a part of a past life and I didn’t want it to define me
anymore.
Wednesday, October 22, 2014
Art and loss
This is a hard post to write. Recently my grandmother passed
away and she was by far one of my favorite people. She was an integral part of me becoming an artist, simply because she told me I could do whatever I wanted
to do with my life. While a student, I showed her my drawings from a life
drawing class and she said they were wonderful and she was happy for me. She
told me I could do it.
Art impressed my grandmother. That fact alone made it worth
doing. She told me about the emotion in Michelangelo’s Pieta, especially the
one he created later in his life. She told me it is a much better Pieta than the one he created earlier in his life. I suppose it’s because life
experiences accumulate and we eventually learn what it means to feel pain and
loss. Perhaps later in life artists figure out what is worth expressing.
I don’t really know how to end this post. Events and loss
can rattle you in unexpected ways. I guess the only thing there is to do is to
keep making art, even if it’s with a little more sorrow.
My grandma Erazmus
Friday, October 10, 2014
Another line and another rope drawing
This week has been productive, despite not posting on the
blog until today! I’ve been sticking to my calendar and I find that helps in
moving me along with projects.
This week I (sort of) finished another drawing, had a great
photo shoot on a golf course, and spent another day outside making some “lines”
with natural materials. The video and photograph are from this past Monday’s
work.
Sunday, October 5, 2014
Studio visit avec moi
It’s been a while since I made a post with a studio shot.
In the last month and a half, I’ve finished three drawings
(the white free falling rope ones) and now I’m onto another drawing (on the easel). My video,
Undrawn, is coming along. Now, I am trying to figure out how to make the
transition in the video from drawings to photographs. As of right now, I have
‘small aquarium’ on my ‘to buy’ list for the video.
I find even the best laid plans are subject for revision in the midst of a long-term art project.
Free Fall I and III, charcoal and gesso on paper.
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